this is just like last time. I can never get a break. 

if pac was alive i think i’d feel a littler better
about music
maybe

i have never felt the need of dying so much as i do today. everything i loved, and everything i owned and cared for dies in front of me all the time, i wanna leave so i wouldn’t have to see that again.
it’s a bit selfish but i don’t know what to do, everyone always says the same thing.
‘ok they’re dead. move on’
that’s all they say they don’t care that’s only human impulse to say everything will be alright.
but human impulse should be the actually genuine care for another one in grief.
it’s all the same
i wish it didn’t happen today not today. today was so good so great
death is peaceful and nice
but only to the one that is leaving everything else behind

 

debating whether i should talk to you or..
:l 

no one cares until you gone
no one really does

i know in the past life i was black

ok

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when i photograph people
it brings me such happiness
i don’t know why
everyone else just dies
and it’s just me and them  

my little heart has a little hole 
in my little atrium
but they said
i was going to be fine
because yolo  

like i said before,
I’ve been reading a lot on the Cobain case from both sides of view. the suicide and the homicide case. and i have a lot to say to pay my respect to a misunderstood genius. the whole thing really saddens me. to see someone that’s so beautiful go. 
but the main point is,
honestly. 
there is way to many evidence for it to be ruled out as a suicide.
what the crime scene investigators did as soon as they were present is ruled it out as a murder because of the outlook. (when i say out look i mean how the shot gun was in his hand, drugs, suppose ‘suicide’ note for Love.) so they kinda stereotyped it if you put it in a much simpler way. the case was originally RE-opened because the crime scene investigator that Love hired said that it was a murder and so on. and so on..
also, the note was not a suicide note, it was a note to Cobain’s fans saying that he was retiring from the lime light into a much calmer life style. (my opinion)
I’ve read the note way to many times. 
over and over again just to analyze it and to see, and my conclusion was right..to my amazement, it was actually a goodbye letter for his fans.
the only thing that is very controversial about the note is the last 4 lines.
which, if you do like me, and re read the thing a bunch of times. you’ll see the Cobain already signed off BEFORE that last 4 lines.
Any who.
what i’m trying to say is.. i honestly think someone wrote the last 4 lines.. not Cobain. someone else.
i can go on and on, but i’m just trying to get my point across.
honestly, i really think they should re open the case. because to much evidence shows that this.. was not.. a suicide… dfdsgkhg
i think there was someone there with Cobain,
Love stated that she cut Cobain’s credit card but..
the credit card reports said that the card was used sometime during Cobain’s death.
Kurt was dead for a while in the green house. approximately 3 days says the autopsy people.
so who was using the credit card?
i don’t know.. i think i should stop talking. 
much respect to Kurt.


 

as much as i love playing basketball 
i cannot play with the girls that i play with
1. they’re dumb
2. they scratch you and stuff
3. bitches
4. and that’s it 

I’ve been reading about 
the Kurt Cobain suicide/murder/homicide/death 
whatever your opinions may vary.  
very interesting
though i try so hard not to cry
because just so
ok 

i care to much for people who don’t deserve to be cared for